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October 08, 2007
anxious, nervous, excitement
Down to 3 more days. I woke up this morning at 6am feeling anxious about Thursday am and my 3rd c-section. Even though I know whats coming its still a bit nerve racking having major abdominal surgery.
Today was my first day with the girls on my own since I hurt my back and it was a difficult one. I sort of feel like I don't have much more to give. This weekend I struggled a bit with feeling depressed, being stuck in my chair watching my husband juggle everything. I totally feel like in some ways I have already had surgery and am helpless, I just don't have the joy of a baby. I worry I've already worn Andy out and how he'll do being on his own to care for me and the girls the first week we're home before my sister flies in. I feel so useless. I was looking forward to a few projects this week around the house and us enjoying ourselves as a family and instead I'm pretty uncomfortable and sometimes in pain. (yeah it looks like I'm allowing myself a little pity party)
I did declare tomorrow movie day for the girls and we're all going to stay in our pajamas, that should be more fun than today when I decided it might be a good idea for them to finger paint. (so stupid) So instead of trying to entertain them, I am going to have them be on "moderate activity" like I am. :)
We'll probably start the day with Mary Poppins, that's a good long one!
I'm not sure if I mentioned this yet, but we lost our camera two weeks ago which is such a bummer, Andy went out and bought another one this weekend. So I finally took a shot of the semi finished basement. It is usable and believe me they love it down there and so do we! It's missing a few details and organizing but as that got knocked off my list this weekend I'll post the picture anyway. :) I'm glad to be able to offer my family who will come to stay after the baby their own space.
| By JennR | 08:34 PM
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