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December 5, 2005
Failure to Thrive
We had another weigh in today with Julia (now 8 months) and she has not gained any weight since our last weigh in 3 weeks ago. Dr. Slack said that we've been playing around with this, so to speak, for 3 months now and its time to get serious. So now we're waiting on an appointment at TC Thompson to have a head ultrasound and get lab work done. I'm pretty sure this all sounds much worse and much more serious than it is. Even the term "failure to thrive" seems a little harsh to me. Julia is a happy baby and she eats all the time, I just can't imagine where it's all going.
My Mom said, maybe it'll be something small that they can adjust with some medication, like a thyroid issue, and I think that was the first time I even considered that there would be something. I've always thought that it was my milk and she needs to be on more formula, but it might not be that. As it is now, she nurses 5 time a day, eats a jar of baby food at lunch and dinner, oatmeal for breakfast, and we fit in 2 4 ounce bottles of formula. She has the correct number of diaper changes, believe me I would know, I get to experience every one of them!
I'm not sure quite how to process it all. I flip flop from feeling like its all just precautionary, to a bit of a failure for not providing for her needs, to wondering what they'll find.
Thank goodness for Lizzie, she keeps me so busy with her constant questions and precociousness, there is hardly time to dwell on it. :)
| By JennR | 2:21 PM
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Man! I am sorry! I know all this is tough, I will be praying for little Julia.
Posted by: jlg at December 5, 2005 2:58 PM
dave and i continue to pray for Julia, you and Andy, and wisdom for her doctors.
Posted by: philana at December 5, 2005 7:58 PM
We missed you and the Bagby's and Christy last night. Know that we continue to lift you and your family up in prayer. Having one seem so happy, yet with this great unknown under the surface is so hard. I know with Marialice's ITP stuff it is so tempting to just be relaxed and minimize it. After all - she's feeling fine and acting normal isn' she?
I hope you take confidence in the truth that you are Jesus Daughter, and just as he loves you SOOO much, he is showing that same love to your daughter. Live in that truth through the day - even when tempted to feel like this is somehow your fault. Your identity is not found in the quality of mothering - it is found in your relationship with him.
(Now put the soap box back under the desk. )
Posted by: Rob Hatch at December 8, 2005 10:47 AM
Thanks Rob. You can get on your soap box anytime. I was just telling Andy the other night that I realized that what I was learning through this was that I was all talk. It was very hard to put my faith and trust in God into practice. Easier when our daily lives remain the same, but to actually release something into His hands was another thing all together. My mind would so quickly go from one extreme to another. The mind is a tricky thing and definitely hard to control. Her tests came back fine (see recently posted entry) and we're so glad.
Thank you so much for your prayers.
Posted by: jennross at December 9, 2005 2:00 PM