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October 8, 2007
anxious, nervous, excitement
Down to 3 more days. I woke up this morning at 6am feeling anxious about Thursday am and my 3rd c-section. Even though I know whats coming its still a bit nerve racking having major abdominal surgery.
Today was my first day with the girls on my own since I hurt my back and it was a difficult one. I sort of feel like I don't have much more to give. This weekend I struggled a bit with feeling depressed, being stuck in my chair watching my husband juggle everything. I totally feel like in some ways I have already had surgery and am helpless, I just don't have the joy of a baby. I worry I've already worn Andy out and how he'll do being on his own to care for me and the girls the first week we're home before my sister flies in. I feel so useless. I was looking forward to a few projects this week around the house and us enjoying ourselves as a family and instead I'm pretty uncomfortable and sometimes in pain. (yeah it looks like I'm allowing myself a little pity party)
I did declare tomorrow movie day for the girls and we're all going to stay in our pajamas, that should be more fun than today when I decided it might be a good idea for them to finger paint. (so stupid) So instead of trying to entertain them, I am going to have them be on "moderate activity" like I am. :)
We'll probably start the day with Mary Poppins, that's a good long one!
I'm not sure if I mentioned this yet, but we lost our camera two weeks ago which is such a bummer, Andy went out and bought another one this weekend. So I finally took a shot of the semi finished basement. It is usable and believe me they love it down there and so do we! It's missing a few details and organizing but as that got knocked off my list this weekend I'll post the picture anyway. :) I'm glad to be able to offer my family who will come to stay after the baby their own space.
| By JennR | 8:34 PM
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How fun! It looks great! I am sure that one room is going to make your house feel so much bigger!
I'm so sorry your pregnancy had to end this way, but at least it is almost over. Let me know how my big belly self can help out, before or after the baby! Can't wait to meet her!
Posted by: laini at October 8, 2007 9:20 PM
looks great jenn!! what a major pre-baby project!Now, you need a painting or three for those walls....
Posted by: katiek at October 8, 2007 11:34 PM
the room looks great! i know that you are glad that it is done. baby on thursday...how exciting! hang in there, back issues are the worst, but hopefully it will start feeling better soon. let us know when we can make dinner for you guys!
Posted by: erin at October 9, 2007 8:30 AM
Thanks for the compliments guys, hopefully it will be open to play dates come late winter and we can have people over! :)
(that would mean us upstairs and the runts downstairs, LOL)
And don't tempt me Katie, I have been drueling over your last few posts and new paintings! I heart yesterday's painting!
Posted by: Jenn at October 9, 2007 9:58 AM
Hey! That looks FANTASTICO! I can't believe it got done so fast! You did it. Sorry sitting on the chair is so crappy. What a star that Andy is for taking care of it all. At least now you have a place for the girls to go and play and somewhere to put their toys, it must have transformed your upstairs. Hang in there Jenn and let me know if you ever need anything.
Posted by: valerie at October 9, 2007 4:51 PM
Have you done the before and after look yet? I know you're preoccupied with other things right now, but when you get a chance take a look at the first garage shot and then at the latest photo. Amazing!
Posted by: valerie at October 10, 2007 12:04 PM
Praying for a safe delivery, a healthy (non-colicky) baby and a quick recovery.
Your playroom looks great by the way!
Posted by: Lisa at October 10, 2007 2:55 PM