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November 14, 2008

excitement and anxiety

ALOT has happened in the last 9 days, it has been an exciting time to say the least. :) About two weeks ago we received an email about a house in the neighborhood we want to be a part of that had not been listed yet but was going to be for sale, cheap. We heard a few not so pleasant things about the house so I wasn't all that excited about seeing it. In fact I was a bit over the emotional roller coaster of Andy mentioning moving but not specifically when and then he'd send me links to houses and ours wasn't even on the market yet! I thought the plan was to put our house on the market in the spring and then shop around. So I ended up telling him I didn't want to look at houses anymore and if he came across any then he could look at it and if it was anything good he could then bring me in on it. :)
To get right down to it, we ended up seeing this house together and loving the price and the yard is so awesome! We like the house alright, it needs lots of love but all in good time. We are moving from a house with ivy and trees covering most the backyard to this-

I took this picture from the back corner of the lot. To us this yard is huge and a huge improvement! When I'm inside the house, and I get slightly overwhelmed by all the little cosmetic things that need to be done I just look outside. Andy is holding Caroline in the picture standing next to 4 raised gardens that were already there. I have NO idea how to garden but luckily several friends do and they can show me what we're growing. I did recognize tomatoes. :)
So we saw the house last Wed, found out their price on Fri, met with the realtor on Sun and signed our papers and they signed on Mon. Tues we heard from the bank that we can keep both houses and rent our old one and yesterday was the inspection! Phew! I realize its fast but it feels like a year. I have really struggled with the anxiety of it all which I know is pretty natural under the circumstances but think is made worse by my own personality. We have had so many victories and answered prayers but I feel like I move right on to the next hurdle so to speak. After we found out the house passed inspection I didn't really feel a reprieve in my stress level, my mind moved right on to all the cleaning and packing and meeting with the rental agency. I've resigned myself to not feeling relaxed until Feb or March.
But whenever I get really stressed, I just look-

I don't know if its too small to see, but under the cement steps going out the back door is a little glass window which can open and you can have access to under those stairs. When we saw the house one of our friends who was with us moved this grill out of the way and discovered the little window or "cage" if you will. We stood there bewildered wondering what it was for and then we joked about putting our kids in there. :) It's pretty bizarre. Hopefully this spring a deck will be covering those little steps.
So anyhoo- its so long brainerd (you've been good to us) and here we come st elmo! The house is a mile from Lizzie's school, there are side walks (none of those here!) and the house is on a double lot and my kids will love the yard. They already do, in fact they cry when we leave. LOL I think Julia thinks we just switch places to live, leaving all our stuff here and using the furnishing that are still in that house. Kind of funny, how simple they think. Oh if it were only that easy!
So Monday we meet with a rental agency and get more of a time table, we will own the other house (I think its a for sure thing now) on Dec 5th. Christmas has sort of become a wash for me now, I don't know what it will look like now. I had lots of plans for homemade family gifts but I think now I will just worry about the girls and we might be giving Christmas gifts in February.
Things are about to get nuts!!!
Thanks to our friends who have prayer with us we feel very thankful and very excited!
(with just a touch of anxiety) ;)
Yesterday I spent most of the inspection time reading Isaiah 40 and listening to christian music which works better for me sometimes when my mind is reeling. It's more relaxing for me just to listen to lyrics and meditate on those. This morning I read a quote on my old youth group leader's facebook page (just to be clear he's not old, lol)
"There are two kinds of people; those who say to God, "Thy will be done," and those to whom God says, "All right, then, have it your way."- CS Lewis
I hope we get to look back on this little adventure and feel confident we were the former, for that matter I hope I can look back on my life someday and feel that way.

| By JennR | 8:20 AM

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